the truth is I have never
awakened beside a woman
whose name I didn't know
although for years that was
the goal -- to rut with anyone
and everyone, slap your jewels
against some beauty's groin,
to wake beside some stranger
and her tousled hair: that
moment of awareness -- you
can call it a sudden insight
if you want, or tumescence --
what spurs the next action?
Do you kiss them gently on
the shoulder, the neck, and
rub the soft kitten whiskers
of her belly, or do you arise
discreetly only to fumble
with your pants, or reach for your robe
and make coffee and omelettes?
After all, everyone craves
an omelette after a night
of raucous banging like a
billy goat against some kilowatt
dam, or do you lie there feigning
sleep until she musters the dignity
to think through the situation
before she bares herself? The theme
is always rescue me, despite this
awkward pawing under the quilts,
the shock of memory, the carnal
blood, the ache in your chafed loins,
there was always the promise of
buttered croissants in a bag, cranberry
muffins and marmalade, french coffee
and cream, all of this served with the
modesty of tenderness and
amnesia, looking into each
other's eyes for a trace of wilderness,
and warmth, and forgiveness, and
not resort to using your old shirt
as a coffee filter and last night's
pud thai and mustard sauce. This truth
is, all of this happens, and more,
and whether we call it love or
lust, amore or shacking up
or frugging or shagging or fucking
or just a spring fling or a trollope
or an indiscretion, a one night stand,
a hump or just a good ole romp 'em,
womp 'em session with a fuck
buddy, I tell you, well, I
don't really know, son, sometimes it
seems like such a great idea, to
couple up when you can, chase a
whole lotta tail and bray like a jackdaw
at dawn at how much you've tagged and
shellacked, and all I can tell you
is that sometimes all of that is
involved, it's more than the guacamole
and kielbasa breath in the morning,
it's more than the instinctual
drive to thrust and grind and slobber
and squeeze, there's more to it than that,
it's more than champagne spritzers
or hair of the dog bloody mary's
and burnt toast and the need for a
shower to wash off the lovestink,
it's not a poem or an exchange
of flowers or chocolates--but
waking up beside strangers?
We do that every day.
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