Monday, April 13, 2009

LOVE

You ask me what this is and
the truth is I have never 
awakened beside a woman 
whose name I didn't know
although for years that was
the goal -- to rut with anyone
and everyone, slap your jewels
against some beauty's groin,
to wake beside some stranger
and her tousled hair: that 
moment of awareness -- you 
can call it a sudden insight
if you want, or tumescence --
what spurs the next action?
Do you kiss them gently on
the shoulder, the neck, and
rub the soft kitten whiskers 
of her belly, or do you arise 
discreetly only to fumble 
with your pants, or reach for your robe 
and make coffee and omelettes?
After all, everyone craves 
an omelette after a night 
of raucous banging like a 
billy goat against some kilowatt
dam, or do you lie there feigning
sleep until she musters the dignity
to think through the situation 
before she bares herself?  The theme 
is always rescue me, despite this 
awkward pawing under the quilts, 
the shock of memory, the carnal 
blood, the ache in your chafed loins, 
there was always the promise of 
buttered croissants in a bag, cranberry 
muffins and marmalade, french coffee 
and cream, all of this served with the 
modesty of tenderness and 
amnesia, looking into each 
other's eyes for a trace of wilderness, 
and warmth, and forgiveness, and 
not resort to using your old shirt 
as a coffee filter and last night's 
pud thai and mustard sauce.  This truth
is, all of this happens, and more, 
and whether we call it love or 
lust, amore or shacking up 
or frugging or shagging or fucking 
or just a spring fling or a trollope 
or an indiscretion, a one night stand, 
a hump or just a good ole romp 'em, 
womp 'em session with a fuck 
buddy, I tell you, well, I 
don't really know, son, sometimes it 
seems like such a great idea, to 
couple up when you can, chase a 
whole lotta tail and bray like a jackdaw 
at dawn at how much you've tagged and 
shellacked, and all I can tell you 
is that sometimes all of that is 
involved, it's more than the guacamole 
and kielbasa breath in the morning, 
it's more than the instinctual 
drive to thrust and grind and slobber 
and squeeze, there's more to it than that, 
it's more than champagne spritzers 
or hair of the dog bloody mary's 
and burnt toast and the need for a 
shower to wash off the lovestink,
it's not a poem or an exchange 
of flowers or chocolates--but 
waking up beside strangers?  
We do that every day.

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