Friday, September 17, 2010

EMBARRASS RIVER


To live here you must absolve
     yourself of all pretense, 
all worldly signs of wealth
     or possession -- not that it's
hard, there's never been anything 
     here, really, save the damned 
river -- there's nothing to mortgage
     except what you do
to each each other, women and men,
     seeking redemption in
each other's wrinkled flesh,
     but it's the eyes that shame,
you can't escape, the deeper fear,
     like a furtive skunk behind 
the eyes, the mind embarrassed.
     There's no privacy here, no 
escape, the sensual and the 
     practical, the poverty of 
a river dock, you fish for
     trout and suckers, trap crayfish
in the claybanks, even pull
     wild rice from the oxbows.
Even on our death beds
     our friends and family
are too embarrassed 
     by the end to cry, to smile,
to hold our lifeless hands, 
     the skin sinking to bone,
oh the personal ownership of it!, 
     the selfishness!, the shame 
of causing such a fuss!
     And when we pass you wonder
What was all of this for?
     This economy of feeling,
this abstention from 
     all things carnal, all the
empty hours, that damned
     dying river?  What value 
remains from all this 
     fierce holding on?  
    

     

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